Monday, July 12, 2010
I know I have not updated in such a long time. I am so sorry for that for those of you who are following me. We had a major move in our lives. We decided to go to Florida where the jobs were better then in Ohio. Emotional roller coaster for sure and it has taken a toll on me bettering myself. Although I have not lost any weight, I have not gained any neither, which is a plus in a way. I really should not throw excuses out there, because that is why I got this way. I am being very lazy at the moment and I see that and need to fix it. I had stopped my medicine for a week because I ran out and didn't know how to get them here. But then realized Wal-Mart had them on the $4 list, so got them transferred them to the Wal-Mart down the road, which helped a ton. So, I just need to get back on them and back in my system. Not a good idea to stop them, because I have headachs and mood swings that are crazy. But I am dealing with it and taking them everyday now. They just make me so tired, so I just need to get past that. Anyways.... The move has probably been the best move we ever did in our lives. I was scared and sad at first and still am a little sad about being away from my family and what I knew for 29 years. But I am getting use to my surroundings and I have learned to appreciate the new area that we are in and what I do have and not what I don't have. We have been going to the beach a lot, which has helped my self esteem. I figured that I shouldn't hide by not going to the beach because I am beautiful and I don't care what people think. If they don't like looking at me, then DO NOT look at me. I am there to have fun with my boys and Dennis and enjoy myself. And that I have done and I am happy about that. I need to continue my journey though and push myself to new goals. I need to make a better me and a stronger me. I really like where I am now when it comes to where I live and money situation, now I need to finish what I started a few months ago. Next goal, get under 300 lbs. I am now at 310, I can do it and I have everything right at my fingertips.