Monday, July 12, 2010

It has been a ride, that is for sure

I know I have not updated in such a long time. I am so sorry for that for those of you who are following me. We had a major move in our lives. We decided to go to Florida where the jobs were better then in Ohio. Emotional roller coaster for sure and it has taken a toll on me bettering myself. Although I have not lost any weight, I have not gained any neither, which is a plus in a way. I really should not throw excuses out there, because that is why I got this way. I am being very lazy at the moment and I see that and need to fix it. I had stopped my medicine for a week because I ran out and didn't know how to get them here. But then realized Wal-Mart had them on the $4 list, so got them transferred them to the Wal-Mart down the road, which helped a ton. So, I just need to get back on them and back in my system. Not a good idea to stop them, because I have headachs and mood swings that are crazy. But I am dealing with it and taking them everyday now. They just make me so tired, so I just need to get past that. Anyways.... The move has probably been the best move we ever did in our lives. I was scared and sad at first and still am a little sad about being away from my family and what I knew for 29 years. But I am getting use to my surroundings and I have learned to appreciate the new area that we are in and what I do have and not what I don't have. We have been going to the beach a lot, which has helped my self esteem. I figured that I shouldn't hide by not going to the beach because I am beautiful and I don't care what people think. If they don't like looking at me, then DO NOT look at me. I am there to have fun with my boys and Dennis and enjoy myself. And that I have done and I am happy about that. I need to continue my journey though and push myself to new goals. I need to make a better me and a stronger me. I really like where I am now when it comes to where I live and money situation, now I need to finish what I started a few months ago. Next goal, get under 300 lbs. I am now at 310, I can do it and I have everything right at my fingertips.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

May 30, 2010

So, it has been a while. I am 310lbs. I have been working a lot at moving and getting things packed, but I am getting there. I went to my GYN and they were so happy for me, after all, they are what has saved my life. I can't talk much, becaus I have to get off and finish painting my bathroom, get a shower and go get my sister and get food started for Dens bday party.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

GUESS WHAT.... May 16, 2010

I have now officially lost 40 lbs. This morning I weighed in at 315 lbs. I HAVE NEVER lost 40 lbs before in my life. I have been doing this about 3ish months and I can not believe it that I have lost 40 lbs. Yesterday I weighed in at 317, and this morning, to my suprise I was down to 315. I have been working very hard for this weight loss laightly. I have been working out every day and watching my food intake big time. I just do not believe how good I feel. It is like I am a different person.

Monday, May 10, 2010

May 10, 2010

I know it has been a while since I blogged about my weight. I have been super busy and I have just not have had much time. I have had some ups and downs, but I am slowly losing the weight. This morning I weighed in at 318, which is my all time low from 355.I have not been this weight since I was pregnant with Domonik alittle over 7 years ago. I have lost now a total of 37 lbs. Things have been really going well emotionally (besides today being a in a bad mood). I have seen a lot of changes on the outside and it has made me feel really good. I am well on my way to be able to ride rollarcoasters again and even getting on the airplane without being scared of not fitting in the seats the second week of June. I would like to get rid of another 20 lbs by then. I think I can do it. I was able to fit in a pair of jeans that I was not able to fit in for a few years. I was so happy and amazed. Last week exactly I tried them on and they would not zip, now they zip and are getting lose on me. what a difference a week makes. I have now been dieting for almost three months. Everything is easier on me. We went to the zoo yesterday with my two sisters and all the kids and I was able to do the zoo without having to sit down because I was tired. My feet hurt a bit, but you know, that is much better then walking through the zoo and scouting for a bench to sit down every few minutes. I figured if I can walk 4 miles at a time on the treadmill without stop, I should be able to go to the zoo and enjoy it with my kids and FOR my kids. I actually got to enjoy something with my boys without being overly tired.... I just did not think about that until just now. I know I have a long ways to go, but I have also came along way so far. This is what you can do when you actually want something so bad that you just can not stop until it is done. When it has came to my weight, this is the first time I have felt this way or wanted it this way. For anyone struggling out there, you can do this. If I can, you most certainly can. Just put in your 100% and don't be scared to go off path every now and again because it will only make you go mad if you don't. And remember, if all you can walk is one block or a half mile on the treadmill, it is better then none at all!!!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

April 29, 2010

So, I am now down to 324. That makes a total of 31 lbs lost. That four miles I walked two days ago really helped me a ton. Want to try to walk about that much today. We will see.

Friday, April 23, 2010

April 23, 2010

All that walking is paying off. I am one lb away from a 30 lb loss. My mom's birthday was yesterday and I had to eat cake and pizza. But today I had a salad, and not much else. I haven't walked in two days, but tomorrow I am going to make up for it and walk a ton on the treadmill when I wake up. I am going to have too, because I don't want to get stiff. I am feeling so good about myself right now, but I am struggling with being so tired all the time. I can't sleep at night again and will take naps during the day. Today I napped from 5-9, which is probably why I can't sleep tonight. I have to do something to get to sleep. My counselor gave me a suggestion to ask the doctor to prescribe. It use to be for an antidepressant, but they stopped giving it for that, and started to give it to those who can not sleep that also take something like xanax and Prozac and it wont mess with it, so I am going to make an appointment and go in and ask about it. Maybe it will help. I know my bad sleeping habits wont help my goal to weight loss and it will catch up to me at some point.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

April 20, 2010

I have done nothing but walk walk walk the past three days. I did three miles today and my legs are just screaming at me. But it feels good to do something instead of sit around all day. I think I over did it a bit because I have a little headach. But no pain, no gain right? I think my pinky toe is going to jump off my foot and run from me. lol I hope to see some lb loss tomorrow.